When things are out of control, when I’m stressed or when I’m down in the dumps, I buy a book. I have lots of books, go figure.
Whenever I’m especially stressed and going nuts like I am right now, I read Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice (P&P) to calm myself down and make myself feel better. The only problem is, I don’t have my book with me. I left it in my room in the Philippines thinking I wouldn’t need it since I would only be gone for a couple of months. WRONG! I’ve never needed it more than I do right now.
I could’ve purchased a new copy, but my P&P copy has sentimental value. We have history together. I remember quite clearly where I bought it (National Bookstore, Tutuban), when I bought it (1996), and why I bought it (because I just saw Sense and Sensibility on VHS). I remember that I was watching tv in my brother’s room one day and decided to multi-task by reading a book at the same time. I remember that the tv show I was watching was quickly forgotten and I was completely engrossed in what I was reading, never putting the book down until I finished the whole thing. I also remember that as soon as I finished the whole book, I read it again because it was so amazing!
I would never have that again, that first time of reading P&P, a book so special you’d want to announce it to all your friends, family and even strangers. I’m glad I’ve got the memories though, and I’m glad that my book is still in pretty good shape even after dozens and dozens of readings. I miss my book. I have to go home!
So as a temporary salve to my pain, I watched The Jane Austen Book Club. I’m a believer in delayed gratification when it comes to some things, and I try to pace myself when it comes to Jane Austen and anything relating to Jane Austen. I don’t want to gobble it all up in one go because I want to have something to look forward to and I’m really glad I resisted watching this movie until now because like I’ve said, I’ve never needed Jane Austen more.
The movie was wonderful! I was very pleased to see such talented actors emulating the character traits of some of Jane Austen’s heroines. Their discussion of 6 of Jane Austen’s books were funny and insightful and it made me wish to have a book club of my own, all Jane Austen all the time. I just need to find 5 people I know who actually read Jane Austen (ok maybe 4 but that’s still a lot!). Maria Bello’s character in the movie is definitely my favorite. She parallels Emma in her desire to be unencumbered by a man and her independent nature (and fortune!). Hugh Dancy’s character is a close second because he’s so good-looking, charming and funny. I’ve forgotten about James McAvoy, Hugh Dancy is now my favorite British actor. Yummy!
The best actor of all in the movie was Emily Blunt, hands down. I wish she could have played Jane Austen in “Becoming Jane” instead of Anne Hathaway. Anne’s ok, but Emily is extraordinary. She could’ve made that movie better because I felt like there was something missing in Anne’s performance and I ended up disliking the movie as a result, even if it was Jane Austen’s (embellished) life story and James McAvoy co-stars.
Which leads me to Ursula Le Guin and science fiction books.
Hugh Dancy’s character in The Jane Austen Book Club is obsessed with science fiction. He recommends a bunch of books and science fiction authors to Maria Bello’s character and he’s so passionate about them I became immediately curious. The day after I saw the movie, I went to Page One to look for Ursula Le Guin’s “The Left Hand of Darkness” and “The Lathe of Heaven” but Page One didn’t have any of her books! Ah! The humanity! I was so looking forward to getting my hands on these books!
I consoled myself with buying other books that day and it made me feel a bit better. I promised myself that I wouldn’t buy books while I was here, but it was an emergency so I’m excusing myself. I bought a book by Arthur C. Clarke to start my path to science fiction and Alain de Botton’s “How Proust Can Change Your Life” because it looked really interesting.
I’m very excited about getting into science fiction. It’s a new genre for me since I’ve always been more into fantasy. Neil Gaiman is the only science fiction/fantasy writer I’ve ever read. So there you see? My depression has lessened due to books, the anticipation, the procurement, the actual reading of the books. The next thing I know, I’m on my way back home, ready to be reunited with my Pride and Prejudice again.